Aaahhhh school holidays, a time that some mums love and some dread. I sit on the fence when it comes to school holidays. I enjoy doing the fun stuff with the kids, movies, play dates, lunching and just hanging at home and love the lack of schedule, no yelling and screaming to put shoes on grab bags, jumpers, hats (I’m sure you get the picture). But even with all the fun some days you just need an hour to yourself to have a shower, do a workout, plan or prepare dinner, I’m sure there are some mums nodding along with me (please tell me you are). And I am blessed that I can take the kids to work with me when I need to (the perks of working for family).
This holidays I have taken things to a whole new level of “falling off the wagon”.
The last day of school was a Friday which also coincided with my husband going on an overseas trip and a 7am drop off at the airport, this was all fine, followed by kids dropped at school/daycare on time and me heading off to work. On the way to work I realised I needed fuel in my car so I stopped to fill ‘er up. Well the sales and marketing people at Coles saw me coming, 2 family blocks of chocolate for $7 what a bargain and $2 large bags of chips, “I’ll have 2 bags of those thanks” after all it was Friday and people might pop in over the weekend (this is what I do to justify it to myself). And there began the downhill spiral that was the next 10 days.
On the way home from work I did a quick run to the bottle shop for some supplies for the week and promptly bragged jokingly about it on Instagram.
Whilst I won’t bore you with the details of every morsel that I ate and drank, I’ll give you a list of what I can remember about my total debacle of a week* (*10 days).
3 family blocks of Cadbury chocolate
Somewhere in the vicinity of 4 large bags of chips
Half a litre of Ice Cream
2x Schnitzel Cotoletta (this is a chicken schnitzel topped with Bolognese meat and melted cheese, I didn’t even know it existed, epic find)
1 loaf of Sourdough in about 3 days often doused in butter and peanut butter (up to 3-4 pieces at a time)
Copious amounts of other bread products
KFC twister and Crusher
Movie popcorn (I shared it, because that makes it all better)
Double choc-top (because a single just wasn’t enough and it was barely past breakfast)
Several Frozen cokes
A bottle of champagne every night and 2 a night over this last weekend (I’m not an alcoholic, they go to meetings)
Late night cheese and crackers
And there was much more; many Chai lattes, a few Iced Chocolates, cakes, biscuits (that didn’t even taste that good), burgers with the whole bun on (gasp).
I was mindfully eating poorly at almost every meal. Sort of defeated the purpose of the last few weeks in cutting out sugar from my cups of Tea.
I’m not blaming any 1 thing for this out of control week* I was still a functioning adult, the kids were still well looked after mainly because of my dirty little secret.
The really bad shit comes out after dark.
I try not to eat the bad food in front of the kids, you know to set a good example and all that. When they ask for desert I like to respond with fruit and proceed to list everything that we have, they can also have yoghurt if we have any and on a very rare occasion a tube ice-block. So my house is not a barrage of junk because as you can see I often have no self control. The chocolate wouldn’t even get mentioned until they were fast asleep and really there was no-one to mention it to.
addiction love of reality TV still continues and the latest season of The Biggest Loser Australia has just started. Whilst I was not in any way as BAD as the show made the contestants out to be, they were inhaling entire pizza’s while sitting alone in a car or consuming litres upon litres of ice-cream for breakfast, having a whole tray of lasagne for lunch that should feed a family, I was my own kind of BAD.
I would have to say this is my longest stint of BAD that I have had in over 5 years. Normally I can manage a good day or 2 in a BAD week, but for some reason I couldn’t get off this downhill spiral. I got to Thursday morning and thought it was almost the weekend, so why start now? Normally I can talk myself out of that mindset but not that day.
But amongst all of these BAD food choices I was still exercising and setting goals, in fact setting some big ass goals. 1 of which was commencing training for a Marathon on the Concept 2 Indoor Rowing machine and the other signing up to compete in the primo 2k Rowing event a the upcoming Australian Indoor Rowing Championships (I’ve been retired from that event for the last 6 years). So in line with my new training regime I sat on the rower for an hour, my body was screaming at me, “what are you doing to yourself” but even that didn’t stop me eating crap shortly after.
So what have I gained from eating like a piggy? Well about 3 kilos, a continual bloated feeling and generally feeling quite down in the dumps.
What have I lost? The ability to fit in some of my clothes, my motivation and self esteem.
What am I going to do about it? Dust off the chip crumbs and get myself together. With another week of the school holidays to go and a long weekend thrown in there and a holiday coming up this can’t go on. Stop blaming little speed humps in my life, FOCUS on the positive, because there is a lot to be happy and positive about and maybe re-word my Typo light board. Any suggestion?
Change light board to hypno is king lol
You work so…darned…HARD. It’s just painful to read about how much you struggle. I don’t quite get it, really, because it is so simple…even while it’s hard.
Why do you bring that stuff into your house? Your kids don’t need it. Your husband doesn’t need it. If it’s something that’s a temptation, just…don’t buy it. If your husband can’t live without it, then make him keep it at work. If you have nothing but veggies to binge on, trust me, binging is a WHOLE lot less fun. You might still have ingredients to make a batch of cookies or a cake in the house, but then you have the whole time you’re making it to change your mind.
A sign? That’s almost like…torture. It’s there to mock you right in front of your temptation.
Plan every single meal a week in advance. Shop only from your list when you aren’t hungry, and if that’s too much temptation, get your husband to do the shopping from the list. Cook everything and divide it into single serving sizes for everyone, based on the measured calorie counts and your goals, and eat from what you’ve preped every day. Leave yourself with endless raw veg and some raw fruit for snacking. 🙂 Don’t make this into some kind of willpower game. Make your decisions when you’re STRONG, not when you’re weak.
What you have going is some kind of sadistic failure chamber there. I’ve had a lot of kids, and so I’ve lost a lot of weight. And I’ve been too chunky (50lbs too chunky) and got back down to my high school athlete weight and am maintaining that. It’s easy for me because I MAKE it easy. If I was living in your house, I’d still be overweight. (My BMI is now 19, 15% body fat.) I work out barely more than the 2.5 hours of cardio and 1 hour of weight lifting that I’m “supposed to” each week. I have a ton of genetic health issues, so I’m sure you could run me into the ground, but all my biomarkers are fabulous now (they weren’t), and of course looking smokin’ hot and setting an example for all my kids isn’t to be sneezed at.
I don’t want to be the “stranger asshole”…but why are you making it SO HARD to succeed? Why is any of that stuff in your house? Why are you demanding that you have superhuman self-control over an area of your life that’s really, really hard for you?
You’ve done so many amazing things. You have willpower coming out of your ears in so many ways. Don’t ask so much of yourself. This could be SO EASY. You are asking way, way too much of yourself. This is like stopping smoking and then leaving a pack sitting out on the kitchen counter.
Wow thanks for taking the time to care and comment. I think you hit the nail on the head with the “sadistic failure chamber”, proper planning prevents piss poor performance and that is where I need to head. Of course these binges are not frequent and I don’t normally have this type of food in the house, I purposefully went out and bought it in this instance. To say I am so different from back in October is an understatement. I sought much needed help so watch this space.